disappearing i am

when u write, u may feel u r putting urself into the paper, that the fluid running thru the pen is ur blood. u donno how it wud be for the person reading.

It takes time and pain for me
to disappear myself
and then appear before you
Then i don’t know
how i would come out
befor your eyes
Afraid i would show myself
as a bird or a butterfly
or a tree or an ant
or just green
or as a blade of grass
with whom i usually identify myself
And then how would i get your attention?
Pecking your nose with my beaks
displaying my colors to you
dropping a fruit for you
climbing your arms,
getting inside your brassiere
and biting on your breasts
being just green
being soft to your feet
And if you would notice me
and kiss me
and hug me
I’ll be ever with you
as a bird, as a butterfly
as an ant, as a tree
as green grass
I’ll be ever with you
for you—
disappearing I am, disappearing
legs gone, head gone
hands alone writing this story
going…
coming…

santathana hostel, cusat, 02.05.01

2 Responses

  1. anubhavi says:

    hi;

    schweeeeeeeeeeeeeet imaginations

    in movies they show the photo speaking

    but yors too good

    i thought while reading that you came out of the monitor

    too too shweet

    anubhavi

  2. I came across this site accidently. I saw it on mallutorrents and clicked on the link to this site. I liked this site. Especially your poems. You seem to be a very open person. You are writing about your life and emotions. I could understand a lot about you from your poems but at the same time there is a sense of mystery. I do wonder where that Doctor from “Doctor & Patient” poem went. I feel like I want to know more about you. I wish there was an autobiography of you I could read to get the answers to my questions. This is actually second time I’m visiting this site. First time, I didn’t see Sarah on the site but now she is added to the site. Best Wishes to both of you. Is there a wedding soon? I also wish there were more pictures of you and atleast one of Sarah.

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